Creativity is chaotic. On many days, my brain is a tangle of feelings, none of which are able to find their way to paper. This hinders not just my advancement but also becomes a big reason for stress.
Even after writing for so many years, there are days when my guiding instincts seem to play hide & seek. When this clearness is missing, my efforts fail.
There are days when I avoid failure just because that’s easier than trying to succeed. I think back to my attempts at knocking up rotis & parathas (Or anything that needed to be given a shape). I failed so miserably & so many times that I gave up trying to cook them.
Moments like these make me question if I’m even growing as a human being. In popular parlance, the ‘loser’ feeling… Am I making a mistake? Do I write badly? Are my experiences even helping anyone?
But then I remember I’m not all down & out as I’m making myself to be. If I’ve failed at two things, I’ve also succeeded at four others & overachieved four more.
Returning to creativity, if my foundation is strong, I know I can bounce back from a day (or days) of failures & self-doubt. I need just one day, just one, to avoid failing. Tomorrow, I’ll succeed…
